Haven't felt like this for a while

It's been tough for me the past couple weeks. I'm a little bit lost.
Tonight I lie on my bed before 12, but couldn't calm myself down. I am so disappointed at myself. Why is that every time I seem to make up my mind to do something, yet I can't follow through. I took the time to set up my goals and set reasonable time line. But I kept moving away from my schedule. Could it be that I wasn't even following my heart? That I was forcing myself to do things that I don't want to do?

Guess that is the case. Yeah, it feels much better with my new goals printed out, lying on my desk in front of me. I